At a certain age, the math changes. You start counting time differently — not from birth, but from an estimated end. Twenty years left. Thirty if you are lucky. This awareness does something that no amount of willpower can replicate: it clarifies what matters.
Younger people quit porn because they want to be better. You are quitting because you do not want to spend your remaining years managing a secret. That is a different kind of motivation — quieter, heavier, and more durable than the urgency of youth.
This is not morbid. It is honest. The question is not "can I change?" — you already proved that by getting here. The question is "what do I want the next chapter to look like?" Not the recovery chapter. The life chapter. The one where you are fully present with the people who matter most.
If you have grandchildren, consider what it means to be the version of yourself that is genuinely available to them. Not performing wellness. Not managing a background process. Actually there. That is not a small thing. In a family, one person's genuine presence changes the atmosphere for everyone.
Time is finite. You are not spending yours on this anymore.
Write one sentence about what you want the next 10 years to look like. Not recovery. Life. Keep it somewhere you will see it.